Elul Day 1. Decide
Leaves turned the seasons
Calendars flipped through decades
And I thought of telling my story
From the day she kissed me in my kitchen
From the time she kicked me in the shin
when I said I could not walk in the snow
For years she wrote of Jesus, of saving grace
of praying for forgiveness
Later on she moved to a mountain
where she created an enclave for her family
We parted and she said we could talk
but never about that time when she sinned
She and I wrote once or twice a year
0f this and that, small things
Sometimes books but in time she only read
tomes on Jesus, of people who followed
and people who led missions to places
where worship had a different lexicon
Whenever I began to tell of my life
she changed the subject
When did I decide to write a letter
telling her about my relationship
of over forty years
years of joy
I sent the letter
Her son wrote to me saying she had died
before she read the letter
He read the letter
